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Me and Babu...the cutest couple :). At least he doesnt have to sit far away from me and the 'rents (inside joke)

( For your viewing pleasure  )

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Woot Woot its almost over seniors! Am i the only who is truly happy? Yea ok so I know I'm not good with goodbyes and i will only keep in touch with no more than 5 of my high school friends (theoretically)..its supposed to be a sad moment, but just think of what lies ahead of us. At least for some of us (most of my firends) we will be attending great colleges, meeting new people, experiencing a whole different world..are we happy or what?!

To recap, high school has been quite an interesting time for me. I overcame the unhappiness of freshmen year and developed amazing friendships and relationships. I've lost a couple of friends some from whom I learned alot and I will always think of, others that I wish I never met. Regardless I learned from everyone I've met in CP. Thanks to those lost friends who taught me how to make myself happy first and to not take crap from men (even if our friendship ended, I still consider you one of the greatest persons i know), and a big FU to the rest of the bitches (you know who all of you are and thank god i never have to see your sorry asses again). As for my friends now, what can i say I'm the luckiest person in the world. I've met an amazing girl who has led me to appreciate the smallest and stupidest things in life, such as 'bear fighting', and to the mom of the group who kept us all on our feet. To my amherst cutie, i love you as much. As for the guys, I have the best guy friends...we will never forget the short nerd who became a party animal, or the coolest cuban/peruvian whom shocked us all with his accomplishments. And I can't forget my number one boy, Stef. My best friend since I've been 7, and truly the love of my life. The one who stayed when others walked out, and most importantly put up with me (its not an easy job) Everything is going to work out fine Babu, I believe in us.

So everything ends. And here i go moving onto better things, bigger accomplishments, and a whole lot of sacrifice that will make me stronger in the long run. I'm left with no regrets, no second thoughts, and I look back and see all the accomplishemtns I've made and all the struggles I've endured, and i am left happy wishing things couldnt have gone any other way.

Kisses

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So this whole college thing isnt settling well with some people. Many people have tried to discourage me and instill fear into me. They tell me my dreams are to expensive, heh, that i should try conforming to my needs. They blame me for causing to much stress on my mommy, who will have to work real hard to send me off. For a split second I thought of staying, that maybe they were right. Fortunately for me, I've always done what i wanted, ignored those around me. (I knew it would be worth it one day). But aside from my gignatic ego, it was a little note my mom left on the fridge that made me ignore all those pricks who just dont understand me.  This is what it said:

"Dream what you want to dream
go where you want to go
be what you want to be
because you only have one life
and one chance to do all the thing you want to do. 

The happiest of people don't have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes their way. "

Thanks Mami, love you!  (insert tear here)

Stole this from Anita's journal....

( Who am I? )

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It's a bit late I know, I saw a scary movie and now I can't sleep. Havent really updated, Im just not in the mood to do so. Either way, here are some pics from Albert's MIT drunken acceptance :)

( If I were Purple, I'd look like this (just for you Anita) )

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It's been an exciting five day weekend...well not quite but it really felt that way. So where do I start

Friday went ice skating with Mari her cousin and Ramon. Thats always fun, especially if you want to do something quiet. Well i bumped into this little kid and felt right on him...missionary position lol. The problem was that i fell on my knees first so they still have huge bruises on them. Had some of my girls over on saturday. We each brought some food and watched a movie. Never had so many girls over my house, I started to feel weirded out by them...but either way gotta love them!  On sunday we went to see my friend Doug at the hospital. He is kinda sick so we went to cheer him up. Surprisingly enough, it was quite fun.  Hope he feels better!

Monday  I went to the beach with a couple of people. The weather was crappy but i still got red. I went today again but it was much more fun that yesterday. All the girls were there which made things funny. Some black guy was groping my friend Christy and hit on Anita. Then Anita by mistake kicked sand on some black girl's nails and was called a bitch...dont mess with the nails ever! lmao.  fun times!

Kisses

( Pics Pics and Pics )

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I hope all of you had a great Valentine's day. I also decided to keep it simple and I made dinner at home. I got stef this really cool book about the best movies ever made  since he is into film and he got me a kitty. Awww it's soooo cute. I got her today and i thought it was a boy but it turned out to be a girl.  She's about 8 months but she is very petite. I'm guessing she is nervous so she is really feisty. I try to pick her up and she gets all violent. I just have to give her time to settle in. I still am not sure what to name her so if you have any ideas let me know.  Stef is soo soo soo cute, he's the best, I love him! :)

( Valentine's day at school  )

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An interesting conversation came up today in English with Andy. He mentioned how people always say that their life will begin when they will do this, or when this will happen. The point is that you have been living your life and life will not begin anytime soon....this is life! Remember when you were a little kid and you couldn't wait to be in high school. It's kind of the same situation. You are so desperately waiting for a major event or era of your life to occur that you are not pre occupied with what is going on now. I am not going to sit here an lie to you that I have always seized the moment, cause I haven't. I just realize how great my friends are, how wonderful Stef is and all the achievements I've made since freshmen year  and I realize that I have been living life. Its that you are so caught up in your life, dealing with issues and with stress  that you don't realize the progress you have made and how quickly time passes by.  So maybe you think that by getting into that university or meeting the "one" will determine when your life will begin...wrong! What if those things never occur? Then will your life not start at all? All these things that we all so anxiously wait for all just chapters in our lives, college, marriage, kids...its not life itself.  Especially for us seniors, we understand this situation and learn to seize the moment.  We've been living all along :)

Kisses

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Haven't updated in a while. Where do I begin? Great four day weekend. Had alot of time to relax and unwind, but also to get my party on. (Can never leave that out). Well isn't that what these last 5 months of senior year supposed to be made of...party party party! Comment if you agree with me. :)

I want to say congrats to Stef and our friend Andy for getting into UM. I'm so proud. As for me, well yea I'm in too, but the excitement isn't there. I'm so weird. I'll reward someone a million dollars if they ever decipher my complicated mind. :) I have such big aspirations and residing for four more years in Miami isn't want of them. Ok so yea I'll leave friends and family behind, even that special someone, but like Andy said, we are all in need for a transformation. Sort of like how Madonna reinvents herself ever so often, yea we need to do the same. A change of scenery will definitely help.  So getting to the point....Congrats guys! 

Kisses

( Party Pics )

( Random pics  )

Mari and Jose Cuervo

Stef and I !

I love Frosty!

Hmmm...

Can't find the piñata?

He looks like a madman... j/p Joe!

Yea that's me

Doug just gave up

Joe and Dee

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I was looking through my middle school keepsakes and I foudn a quote my best friend at the time had written...."Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes your behind, sometimes you are ahead. The race is long and in the end it's only with yourself."  Kind of cheesy when you first read it , but you can't help but thinking how true it is.  Tell me what this mean to all of you....

Staying home again...second night in a row...I feel so wierd staying home on a weekend, it sucks. Well you're probaly wondering why...well my grades are slipping and I need to study more. It is one of those will power things that although it seems annoying now, I know in the future it'll be worth it. I think of it this way, if I study my ass off now, a year from today I'd be in Boston snowed in ...doesn't it sound great! I love it! There's nothing to do anymore in Miami. Just a whole bunch of factory made girls and really bad music. Only 7 months...only 7 more months. I feel bad leaving my mommy behind but she is the first person telling me to get out there and live my dream, even if it mean moving to another city, another state. Thanks for the support mami!

So back to the whole jealousy thing, is it normal to be jealous of people that you care about? Can it be possible that life is one big competition? Competition for grades, for jobs...yada yada yada. Maybe I am just crazy. You never know. Can i be dumb enough to harm frienships and relationships just because of a little thing called inferiority complex. It's just sad.